28 December 2016

Resolutions: 2017

It's that time of the year again. People are listing out their new year's resolutions and are motivated to achieve them. I myself have a list for 2017's resolutions. I can't remember what my resolutions were for 2016 because I wasn't serious nor was I keen in achieving them. With that being said, 2016 was by far the shittiest year in my nineteen years of existence. It's safe to say that I've spent half of this year crying, having anxiety, and going through immense stress and depression. The internet made fun of Kylie Jenner when she said 2016 was going to be a year of "realising things", but we have to admit she is damn on point about it. 

I realised I shouldn't waste my time on people - close friends or acquaintances - who don't put as much effort in me when I put so much in them. I also realised that everyone will hit a very low point in life; I just happened to be in my lowest at 19, where I had an existential crisis and was sure that I screwed up my future by taking up a bachelors degree in something I'm not sure if I'm interested in. Ah, life. Okay, enough about realising things, here are my 2017 resolutions.

  1. Be physically, mentally and emotionally stronger.
  2. Not waste time on people who don't put effort on you.
  3. Get good grades and study overseas.
  4. Eat less junk food.
  5. Get rid of your insecurities.
  6. Have a fixed daily schedule (to avoid procrastination)
  7. Achieve all your goals.
  8. Spend less time on social media.
  9. Be happy. 
Now all I have to do is keep them until the end of the year haha.

Much love,

13 December 2016

10 Lessons I've Learned in 19 Years

Happy birthday to me. I'm officially 19 years old, and I'm feeling all sorts of emotions. I'm sad that this will be my last year being a teenager. I've lost interest in celebrating birthdays because, last year on my birthday, I locked myself in my room and cried; none of my friends and family was free to celebrate with me, and all I wanted last year was a proper family dinner but the only people home were me and my eldest sister. I guess I was influenced by the western media and how they portray 18th birthdays as a celebration that should be celebrated with such grand.  I don't want to disappoint myself and make myself cry like last year, so I don't really expect anything from my friends and family this year. Hell, I'm going to buy myself a present because I deserve it and who else is more worthy to buy what I want than myself?

Here are 19 life lessons I've learned in 19 years. Every day is a struggle, but I'm surviving. 

1. Nothing will go your way when you expect it to
e.g: expecting a birthday surprise or birthday party for your 18th birthday from your loved ones. #LowkeyStillSaltyAboutIt #DontWantToExperienceThatAnymore

2. When there's a will, there's a way
My life motto. This motivates me to reach my daily goals, like attempting to park in a tight parking spot and succeed.

3. The only person who hates you the most is you
Dear self, stop doing your haters a favour by criticising yourself. Love you for who you are. 

4. Trust no one
I've lost count of the times I've been backstabbed by people I call friends. 19 years. It took me 19 years to realise there are people out there who will use you for what you have and own. Sadly I had to learn this the hard way.

5. Keep your social circle close and small
You don't need a big group of friends if you're going to end up lonely and betrayed at the end of the day. There is only a few of them who will be there for you when you need someone the most. Those are the friends you should treasure.

6. Stop acting so tough on the outside when you're breaking down on the inside
It's okay to feel vulnerable sometimes. Everyone has their bad days and some have it worst than you. Don't act like everything will be okay when you know it won't. Let it out. Cry. Call your best friend(s). Watch a movie. Feeling tough on the outside won't make you feel tough on the inside. 

7. In order to find love, you have to love yourself first
Everyone has insecurities, and you're no exception. But that doesn't give you the right to hate your appearance and bring down your self-esteem. How are you going to find someone who will love you for who you are, when you can't even love yourself?

8. It's okay to be alone, even when you're lonely
Don't be embarrassed to eat alone, shop alone, or even hang out after class alone. Sometimes, it's better to have a day all to yourself and clear out your thoughts. Call it mental detox, if you may. 

9. Self-discipline is key
Motivate yourself to be a better you. Don't lie on your bed and complain how you ugly and fat you look, drink more water and work your way to success. 

10. Think twice, if not thrice when deciding on future life choices
Don't follow what other people have to say about your choices. At the end of the day, it's you who have to go through all the ups and downs, and your happiness is what's important.

This is honestly the lowest point of my life, and I ask God every day why am I faced with such tough problems. Nonetheless, I know good days will come someday because I believe that no one is sad forever. I will find my happiness - and when I do - that will be the day I am strong mentally, emotionally and physically. 

23 November 2016

The Lazy Workout for Lazy People

I am probably the last person you should trust in giving workout advices because I am the laziest and most unfit person alive. Due to that, I know just the workout for people like me, who want to get more fit and healthy but can never find the motivation to get up from the bed or sofa.

If you expect this workout to make you look like Adriana Lima or Nick Jonas in a span of one month, I suggest you to find another workout plan. This workout plan is dedicated to those who don't have much time to workout, or don't want to sacrifice 15 minutes of their time to complete a regular workout routine (read: me). Believe it or not, this workout can be done in 4 minutes and no equipments are required.

This workout plan is inspired by a workout app I got from the App Store called Quick 4. With Quick 4, you can have a full body workout done in just 4 minutes. This app is free and, after using this app for a month, I can guarantee you will have a more toned body. I bought a Punjabi suit a month before my sister's big day (my sister's wedding was Indian themed) and it was really tight around the chest area. Curse you, boobies. One month later, I lost boob fat and my Punjabi suit fit me perfectly :')

ok ah this picture doesn't do much justice, just wanted to show off my suit lmao

I admit, I have been slacking a lot after my sister's wedding because, I had no motivation and reason to lose weight anymore. I used to go on the app every day, and I didn't change my eating habit except completely cutting off soda. After that, I only used the app a few times a week, then once a week, then forgetting about the app's existence. However, I have decided (like, yesterday) to continue where I left off because being insecure about my body and not doing anything about it isn't going to make me any better!!!!!!!!

I'm going to list down a few of the workouts I do from this app, and add a few I like to do because I always replace burpees with something else. I hate burpees. Enjoy!

Let me know if this workout works for you! xx

18 August 2016

[REVIEW] Innisfree Jeju Volcanic Nose Pack

I'm back with another review! This time round, I'm going to review a Korean product and personally for skin care, I prefer Korean brands for skin care because I find it to be more gentle than most western brands. Korean products (or Asian products in general) also tend to be more on the "natural" side, in the sense that the products do not contain a lot of harsh chemicals which is great if you have sensitive skin. 

I am a big fan of Innisfree and I personally think their products works so well on my skin because it's so gentle and sensitive skin-friendly. Not to mention, affordable which is important for students like me who has a tight budget.

I bought this nose pack a month ago and I only had the time to try them out now. The last time I used any type of nose pore strip was years ago and I didn't really see that much difference it made on my nose. However, back then my skin was almost flawless so, I would like to think that I didn't really have much blackheads then lol lol. My skin right now is in its worst state; my pores are clogged, I have blackheads and whiteheads on my forehead, nose and chin area. 

I've seen a lot of articles and videos about how pore strips in general is not good for your skin, as it makes your pores appear larger or something like that but I decided to just, screw it and try it anyway #rebel. So, without further ado here is my review on the Jeju Volcanic Nose Pack.

p a c k a g i n g
The packaging is pretty simple and I like that. One thing I like about Innisfree is that they're products are eco-friendly and made from natural ingredients. The packaging is recyclable and the ink is printed with soy ink. So, that's a plus point for me.

p r o d u c t
Just like any other pore strip, you have to first dampen your nose before you apply the sheet. Then, remove the film on the sheet and place it on the centre of your nose. Once you're done with that, wait 15 minutes for the sheet to fully dry. Then, remove the sheet slowly and see the results! Make sure to wash your nose to remove any residue.

Personally, it did remove some of my blackheads as you can see in the picture but it didn't remove most of it. Which results to an unclean feeling on my nose. I still feel some roughness around my nose area but I've only used this once, so I can't expect this sheet to 100% remove my blackheads with one try.

As I'm writing this, it has been 30 minutes since I removed the sheet and I have to say that my nose is feeling really itchy and tingly right now. I don't know if this product doesn't suit my skin or something but I remember I had the same problem when I used the Biore pore pack too. So, I think all pore packs leave me with an itchy nose. 

So the question here is,
Will I repurchase? I don't think so. For a product that costs RM30 (for 6 individual strips), I expect it to do wonders to my skin but I think nose strips found in drugstores can do a better job than this. And it's cheaper.

Do I recommend this? I don't know. I mean, there are some pros and cons for this product. I mean, it's all natural and there's no harsh ingredients and undoubtedly it works, but not as well as I hoped. Maybe I just set expectations a bit too high for this one.

Overall rating: 3/5

Thank you so much for reading this post and I hope you find this review helpful. Let me know if this worked for you, or if there's a nose pack better than this. 
Til then, xx.

Love Somebody - Ta-ku feat. Wafia

A Change of Heart

Jane Chuck changed her blog template after a long time so, I changed mine too. LOL JK I felt like I need to up my blogging game and be more active like before so I decided to a few things on my blog. I deleted a lot of my previous posts because the photos were lost and all you can see is the ugly triangle with an exclamation mark in the middle wtf. What's worse is that I couldn't find any of the photos in my laptop or Dropbox so I had no choice but to delete my posts :( I guess I'll take it as a sign to change my entire blogging style and profile.

I have a few draft posts to be published and I'm currently doing a review about a make up product, so bear with me guys. Please tell me what you think about my new layout (I paid for this it better look good LOL) and what I can do to improve!

Til then, xx
A Change of Heart - The 1975

09 August 2016

Happy birthday Althea! #AltheaTurns1

Last week, I received a party kit from Althea in conjunction with their first birthday. When I first heard about Althea, I felt like shopping for skin care has gotten significantly easier because I can find all my favourite Korean beauty products in one website. What I love about Althea is that it gives me the access to shop for different Korean brands and pay at the check out with ease. They also offer free delivery upon check out for items that costs more than RM150. The best part about this website is, everything is 100% authentic and imported from Korea.

Let's give a situation where, you're at a Korean beauty store and you've been wanting to buy this specific product for awhile now. And when you finally have the money and/or time to head to the nearest store, you find out it's out of stock storewide. Well fear not, beauties. Althea is here to save the day!

So here's how the birthday box looks like, and let's see what I chose on the site!

  • Innisfree Super Volcanic Pore Clay Mask
  • Tony Moly Tomatox Magic White Massage Pack
  • Innisfree Green Tea Sleeping Pack
  • [Snow White] Oneday Whitening Lotion

It's not too late for you guys to join in the birthday fun, though! Althea is having a contest on Instagram in conjunction with their first birthday. Stand a chance to win amazing prizes, such as Macbook Air, Ipad Air 2, iPhone 6S, Galaxy S6 Edge, Canon EOS M10 Selfie Camera, Althea credits and beauty hampers from Althea!
NOTE: Contests starts from 20th July - 15th August 2016. 

What do you have to do to win these bad boys? Easy! Just wish Althea a happy birthday with the hashtag: #AltheaTurns1 on Instagram!

That's not all, guys!
Stand a chance to get the:

  • Limited Edition Birthday Box + DIY Party Kit (For orders placed on 20/7 onwards. While stocks last.)
  • Free Goodies for first 1,500 shoppers (While stocks last.)
  • Birthday Giveaway. (Pick the 3 Top Sellers for 100% rebate! Side note: rebate will be credited into your account.)

Thanks so much again, Althea for hooking me up with these products and the birthday box. My beauty regime might just got more easy thanks to you ;)

27 July 2016

My Part-time Working Experience

I recently took up a part time job in a retail store at Sunway Pyramid. In this blog post, I'll refrain from mentioning the name of the retail store, not for "privacy" reason (I'm not some kind of big shot lol) but because I don't what MY experience and perception of that store to be seen as if that place is not an ideal place to work at, especially for part time.

A few weeks back, I decided to look for a part time job to kill time, as well as to gain experience and to know how it feels like to earn your own money. Growing up I can say that I was, and still am, blessed that my parents are successful enough to financially support the entire family. I'm not trying to say that I'm well-off or anything like that, but I'm blessed and grateful that my parents can afford to send me to a private college for my pre-u, and give me monthly allowance when I lived in Subang for the past year. I didn't know how it feels like to have a job. I did not have any sort of experience. The closest thing I experienced with "work" was when I worked for my dad after SPM, and that doesn't even count as, all I do is sit in the office and play with my laptop. I wanted to know how it feels to go to work, and do something and earn money for it. So, I decided to search for a part time job in Sunway Pyarmid. Why there? I am very familiar with that area. I lived in Sunway City for a year and I know all the nooks and crooks, and the all the shortcuts in Sunway.

The reason why I chose retail is simple. I have an OCD when I see messy clothing racks and clothes piled up outside the fitting room area. I also hate to see hangers in the fitting room. I initially wanted to work in stores that people my age usually shop at like, Forever 21, Topshop, H&M, etc. But none of these stores offered any vacancy. None that I know of, at least. I decided to search up vacancy at this one store that is a sister company to Topshop. After I finished submitting the form on the store's website, I went to bed and hoped for the best. A few days later, I got a text from an unknown number telling me I got shortlisted for the job and informed me about an interview that took place in Starbucks Sunway. Needless to say I was stoked and excited about this. I went for the interview and it was history from there.

I prayed everyday for that I got the job for Topshop because I'm only familiar and attracted to their brand. The rest of the brands under company, not so much. A week after the interview, I got a call from the person who interviewed me and told me if I can work at their sister company. I have no idea why I didn't take my time to think about this throughly but I just said "yes" on the phone even though I was upset that I didn't get picked for Topshop. I was also told to go to Sunway Pyramid to meet up with the store manager to have a second interview with him. In my head I was like, "well what harm can an interview be right?" So I went and had the interview. During the interivew I was told that the pay was RM6 an hour, and I have to work for a fixed 8 hours for six days in a week. I thought, well if I can wake up at 6:30AM for an 8:30 class and stay in college until 4:30, I sure I can deal with 9:30AM til 6:30PM shift, no? Boy, was I wrong. I also did not calculate my daily salary and compare it with my car petrol and toll rate from Setia Alam to Subang and vice versa. The 6 bucks can barely cover the toll rate, let alone my weekly petrol budget! Maybe choosing Sunway to work part time wasn't the best idea, but at least I learned a good lesson from this.

It's been exactly one week since I started working in that retail store and everyday I feel dead inside because I just cannot talk to my coworkers. We don't get along very well because we don't have anything in common. I wouldn't say I'm shy, but I'm socially awkward. What makes matters worse is I am socially selective. No, it does not mean that I'm picky when it comes to making friends. It's just that I usually don't initiate the first conversation.

My first day working was very awkward and stressful for me, to the point where I went back home crying my eyeballs out to my sister. The second day was no different. I am not used to standing for 8 hours straight so it's only normal for my feet and lower back to hurt after all that walking and standing. The only time I ever felt like myself again was when I come back home and have a good rest. I don't think any amount of money is worth feeling like this everyday. I've gotten used to standing up after the third day of work and it was okay up until Day 5. Day 5 to me was the final straw because that was a weekend and I felt like my social life was taken away from me. I couldn't go out with my friends because I had work. I had to deal with snobby and demanding customers. I have to deal with this one coworker of mine who probably hates my guts because I remind her of her boyfriend's former fling (which btw is not a good reason to hate on someone, especially if you don't know that person.) I don't feel like myself anymore. I feel sad, cranky, depressed, frustrated and tired. And this is just one week of work.

On Monday, I decided to tell my manager I'm going to quit and lied that I got an offer to study overseas. He was okay with my decision, maybe because he expected me to quit this soon but he didn't say anything when I told him. So I guess I'll still have to go to work tomorrow and remind him again that I "need to get my student visa done".

Some people can deal with retail stores but it's definitely not for me. Maybe I chose the wrong location and store.... Whatever it is, I'm definitely not going to work part time for now. Call me a snob, bratty princess or whatever. What's the point of working when you're not happy with what you're doing?