12 February 2017

January in a Nutshell

Hopefully, I'll make this into a blog series, so that I'll post regularly. In the meantime, you can follow me on Dayre, Twitter, and Instagram (shameless self-promo omg). 

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It's now February and I'm just going to talk about my highlights for last month. Although there are only 31 days in January, a lot had happened and I'm going to share a few of the moments I can remember.

Honestly, this month I was stressed with assignments and exams preparations. I have assignments due every two days in a week, and I (and I think most of my classmates) didn't really care much about our grades anymore. For our final major assignment, I think most of us didn't care about the guidelines anymore; we just want to pass it up before the submission dateline. That's Arts and Humanities students for you lol. 

For the first few days of January, everything was going well; I still had that "new years motivation" and if you read my previous post, you would know that being positive in every aspect is one of my resolutions. No matter how shitty my day was, I had to constantly pull myself together and tell myself "it's okay because this will pass and you'll get over it." I just had to motivate myself to be positive, you know? And that helped for the first few weeks or so until something happened and everything just became negative again. It's funny how long it took me to feel genuinely happy and positive after a long time, but it took less than a day to put myself back in a negative, depressing hole.

I do want to talk about this issue but at the same time, I want to forget about it and leave it all in the past. One thing's for sure, I now know who my real friends are; who's there for me when I'm at my lowest and who's not. I'm so mad at myself for always giving people chances and giving them the benefit of the doubt. At the end of the day, I'm always the one that ends up hurt. I don't believe in karma, but I hope one day, maybe 10-30 years down the line, whatever you did to me, it will happen to you or your bloodline two times worst. I know that sounds rather harsh, but I'm sure if you've been hurt by the same group of people over and over again, for different and petty issues, you'd wish the same.


Let's talk about that one time I got kicked out of exam hall because I came late for my General Studies exam LOL. So, my GS exam started at 8:30 AM and I arrived campus 20 minutes later due to the jam. You can obviously tell it's my fault, like I'm not even going to deny it ok. I severely underestimated the jam that day but whatever, it's my fault nonetheless. So, I'm already late for an exam I'm obligated to take, I found out I have to seek approval because I was late for more than 15 minutes wtf. I had to look for Mr Adrian(who I assume is the Head of the GS subjects in my university), and seek his approval to sit for my paper. I went to the office and he gave me a fucking attitude. At 9 AM!!!!

I guess I'm used to college exam rules where invigilators don't give a single flying shit if you arrive late. I mean, if you're late then it's your loss la right? You get lesser time to do your paper. Why do I need an approval to sit for a paper I'm already late for? 

Anyway, Mr Adrian cynically said that if I want to sit for this paper, I have to register this subject AGAIN and take it next semester. WTF man? Fuck no. What a waste of my 4 months! CCB my parents pay so much per semester for their daughter to receive this kind of attitude, is it? Mr Adrian didn't even look at me in the eye when talking to me. He was just spinning himself on his office chair and looked elsewhere. I wished he fell down from his chair okay he deserved it!!!! He could've explained to me nicely and I wouldn't have a problem with it. It was my fault, anyway. To make shit worst, another latecomer asked him, if it was mandatory to take General Studies if we plan to transfer to Australia and CB Mr Adrian sarcastically replied him, "That is if you can transfer to Australia." WTF BRO please spare us the attitude okay, it's only 9 AM. 

The usual time slot for GS is from 6-8 PM and I cannot understand why the exam wasn't done at that time? I agree that it's much better and convenient to do the exams in the morning, but most of us are already used to staying back until 8 PM anyway. Also, Mr Adrian, you could have just told us our reason is not valid, therefore you can't allow us to sit for it. I would have just left the office and go on with my day. Why the attitude? Did my parents pay RM 15K to get this kind of service from the university's staffs? I sincerely hope you get fired from your job.

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I can't wait to see what February has in store for me. If there are any grammar errors, please forgive me for I did not proofread whatever I just wrote lol. Anyway, I'm back on Dayre, so do follow me!